The way you broke my heart was brutal. There’s nothing good about screaming into your pillow in the middle of the night, or finding comfort in hurting yourself, or crying so hard you can’t see. There’s nothing good about my heart after you left.
Before you, I was never going to fall in love because I was too scared. But you came into my life and you convinced me to trust you and so I did. I poured my heart out to you. I trusted you and believed every “I love you”, every “I am not leaving you”, every “I will always be there”, every fucking promise.
You were suppose to be here. So where are you???
It feels like it has been forever and I am scared to forget the sound of your voice.
I always thought I meant something to you. That you’ll never abandon me. The person who made me believe in myself ended up making me feel soo bad about myself that I keep wondering every single night what wrong have I done to to be treated this way?
But I don’t deserve this. No matter what the reason is behind you leaving me like this, you have absolutely no right to make me feel bad about myself. I won’t let you do that.
You have now definitely lost a person who loved you with all the love she had in her heart and who could have done every thing to make you happy.
But my love, you will soon realise this. And that day, you will feel the exact same pain that I’m going through right now. You’ll cry and you would do anything to just talk to me once. You will think of the day when we were together and you’ll see that not everyone can love you the way I did. Not everyone can try this hard to get your love the way I did. Not everyone can put you above all other priorities the way I did. That day you will do anything to fix everything but then my love, you won’t find me because I’ll be gone.